Shadowlands

Time to do a little maintenance and see if I have any brain cells left… Nope, still empty. They ooze out with the heat. Projects: on hold, moving slowly. Making lists. Dealing with summer. That's always hard, summer. Schedules get knocked off track—okay, never was much of one to keep to a schedule, but if I had one, summer would sure dislocate it. That's more in keeping with reality, at any rate.

This morning I spent about three hours at a workshop on the concept of consecration. Consecration: solemn commitment of your life or your time to some cherished purpose (to a service or a goal). That's the definition that I'm going with for the purposes of this blog. It is a workshop being developed by friends—I was a beta-tester, along with two others. I'm looking forward to seeing how this all develops and being a participant. More important, I'm looking forward to shaking it out and seeing how I can get what I've just learned to fall into place in my life as it stands right now. I have things to do—that are not getting done. Why? Find the answers, move forward.

I feel energized today. Have not felt that way in ages. Maybe the veil is lifting and the past is shifting out of the way. It has been a long seven months of illness and testing. A few more tests to go, but so be it. Thus far, all tests come back normal/positive so I can stop worrying. Not that I was overly worried to begin with, but all that running from one specialist to another for this and that drains time, energy, resources. Makes me a bit jumpy. Maybe I can find a way to let all that "stuff" flow past me as I get on with other things? Let it happen around me but connect the core of myself elsewhere? An interesting concept. Abdu'l-Baha says: "Know thou that the Kingdom is the real world, and this nether place is only its shadow stretching out. A shadow hath no life of its own; its existence is only a fantasy, and nothing more; it is but images reflected in water, and seeming as pictures to the eye."

Whilst at the workshop this morning, I had a few wandering thoughts having to do with reality—or Reality. Mostly disjointed but leaving me feeling on the edge of a realization, giddy and ready to fly. First, the thought: Don't confuse me with the facts. Which lead to; The physical is NOT the fact of reality = it is the confusion of Reality = the "static" that surrounds us (physical reality) = is THE TEST we journey through to get to the Divine matrix = we actually live *within* that matrix (see quote above) but we forget it as we get caught up in the physicality of life. Anyway, it's a start. Something to give some thought to as I move forward.